Haqs'

2010-05-12T08:27:00.002+08:00

Dead.

Black Or White? Grey Pleaseeeee?

2009-09-23T17:25:00.002+08:00

Hello

I'm lazy to update.

Bye.

Today's The Day

2009-09-19T00:53:00.000+08:00

where 11 is suppose to be the magical number.

Pleaseeee

2009-09-14T01:22:00.003+08:00

Har-loh.

I'm going to update properly now. So, its Puasa period, and guess what? I could hold back the urges to eat most of the time. Good enough, better than the days in good old BBSS, where skipping is a routine and habit. So, my family has done 5 different types of "kuih-kuih". Impressive, since its mostly a 2-man-team, or should I say 1-half-man-team. Considering I slacked alot, hmm. All of them are edible though. :) and Rashid has volunteered to test try the "kuihs." I need to meet him soon, prove to him that its niceee.

Hari Raya this Sunday and I can't wait. But Saturday is a day I can't wait for too. Its B and me 11th. :D haha. But I doubt I cant even step out of the house. Boohoo. :( There's always green packets to look forward to on sunday. Let's hope this year's haul is better than last year. My bank account needs money badly! Not forgetting getting together with my cousins, thats a good thing, its been so long.

I'm bored at home. Just played FIFA Online 2. There's DOTA, CS, MOHPA, RA3. But I'm sick of all. :( I want L4D, Football Manager 2009, Batman: Arkham Asylum! Hols killing me. I want go climb!!!

This is long enough. Goodnight humans.

Long Long Way

2009-09-13T05:13:00.000+08:00

Its 5.14am. I just reached hme an hour ago, I'm hungry, I'm sad. I miss my girl. I miss my old me.

GOOD LUCK FOR LATER B! :D

Realization

2009-09-12T01:03:00.002+08:00

Take time to realize?

NO MORE TIME.

Crossroads

2009-09-12T00:54:00.003+08:00

Its so hard. Why am I such a pain? I don't understand things. Its so pain to see you like this. Its all my fault. I only got you. I have others, but no, it will be just you only. Not others.

There is no pain equal to that which two lovers can inflict on one another. This should be made clear to all who contemplate such a union. The avoidance of this pain is the beginning of wisdom, for it is strong enough to contaminate the rest of our lives.
	Cyril Connolly

Back There

2009-09-11T01:36:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I think that, I go too fast. Its time to reverse and find the old me.

A State Of ....

2009-09-09T01:37:00.001+08:00

I wonder to myself. Why do I always mess up? GRRR! I'm so pissed at myself. :(

And Black Became Grey

2009-09-08T01:57:00.004+08:00

Something must be done. Too many chances, all blown away. Common Haqiz.

SSC done. Good camp, lousy weekend. Burning inside, suffering inside.

I want go out. Why can't I? Its the HOLIDAYS. I want go out! :(

Loser

2009-09-07T12:18:00.000+08:00

Im such a loser.

That Way

2009-09-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

Seems so, alone? Am I missing something?

Patience the key. Give and take.

Yesterday

2009-09-02T09:57:00.000+08:00

Gym at Sam's condo gym with R and Sam. Super slack. "Played" with the dumbbells for 1 and a half hours. Good job Haqiz. R slacckkkk! hahaha.

I need a proper update on this blog. But life so mundane without school. And stories of me and R is a no-no. Soooooooooooooooooo. HOW HOW??

Sorry.

2009-08-31T21:14:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry my friends, for not going this afternoon. I'm sorry 4E5ians for not being able to attend this upcoming class BBQ.

I just want you back. YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU! I fucking hate myself.

Again

2009-08-31T00:43:00.003+08:00

Stop being paranoid Haqiz. 17 and yet behaving immaturely. This is so infuriating. I'm so pissed at myself.

Got to prove. Need to prove. Wants to prove.

I miss you. I miss being happy.

Here Without You

2009-08-30T12:41:00.000+08:00

Tears flow. Eyes redden. Hands too weak. Heart in pain. No energy to do anything.

Don't try to selet in my relationship. Im never perfect. But I'm always trying to be. And always, another weakness comes out. Hurts, pains. Where to go? I see you. Why are you running? Don't! Please don't?

WEE

2009-08-26T11:37:00.001+08:00

PEACE. Lets find peace. Go Haqiz.

Regretting

2009-08-23T22:19:00.000+08:00

I hate me. HATE!

What to do now? You messed up Haqiz. Get it back on track.

1+1=2

2009-08-22T13:08:00.002+08:00

Two's a company. Three's a crowd.

Im pissed.

Where It Belongs

2009-08-21T00:56:00.004+08:00

Today been such a pretty good day. Though it started badly with me, waking up late and taking a mammoth effort to just go and bathe. Went online and headed to BBSS after that. Suppose to have a meeting but 4 came. -.- I can't see effort yet, this is so infuriating. Wanted to go to mama shop at the back of school but in the end, played basketball first.

Had a good time shooting in the ball, alot went in, and I must say that is an achievement considering the last time I held a basketball was like O levels? Played 4v3. Went to mama shop and off we went to Macs; Haziq, Iman and me. Watched Remi Gaillard on Youtube. Laughed like mad at Macs.

The best part of the day? Meeting YOU. Its like so great to have you with me, talking with you and not thinking of other matters. Love love love YOU! :D BG is mine forever.

The worst part of today? Knowing that my first paper is only 4 days away. :( SPOILER!!

2009-08-19T20:41:00.000+08:00

10 months. 304 days. I love you, my BG. :D

2009-08-14T00:00:00.002+08:00

To get what you want, you need to earn it. Work hard, and achieve it.

I did try. I did. I put in so much more than any others. What would be the end results? Wait and see Haqiz.

Two's a company, three's a crowd.

Nothing is so much better than you. Nothing should go wrong with you. Nothing can match up to you. Nothing is worth more than you. Nothing can top you. Nothing in this world can be so precious to me other than you. Nothing seems impossible with you. Nothing seems like you.

But we can never be nothing.

Hate him not.

And Then There Was A Word Called Future

2009-08-12T20:02:00.000+08:00

You know a day good day came when you smile so much. Seeing your beautiful girl, nothing is more great. As quoted on Amelia's blog pic and Dictionary.com, Love: A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person."

What's wrong?

2009-08-11T03:32:00.001+08:00

What's wrong with me? Am I even worthy of a place in this world. It just seems that I can never be good. Everywhere, I'm just stressed by the thought of it. School isn't clicking, friends ain't understanding, family just nagging, NCC is calling. I want a life which is balanced. Maybe I'm juggling too much, but I just want to try. This could be my downfall, maybe it wouldn't. I won't take a break, I won't go down without fighting. I can't give up.

I'm lost.

I need you; Rachel Soong Wen Ching. You been my fire, my motivation, my will, my inspiration, my saviour, my life for the past 9 months. I need you more than ever. Please.

My past is too much for you to take, I know. But as some people would put it, "People change over time." I did. And I'm better than ever. We both lost a lot together but it was worth I must say. I just need you now. I need my beautiful queen.

2009-08-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

IM FED UP WITH MYSELF.

Disappointment

2009-08-10T17:16:00.001+08:00

FUCK MY STUPID PAST! I hate me. I totally hate me. HAQIZ An-Nuar; YOU ARE THE MOST STUPID FUCKED UP BASTARD IN THIS WORLD! GO AND DIE YOU PIECE OF CRAP! YOU ARE PATHETIC PATHETIC PATHETIC! GET THIS IN YOUR BRAIN, YOU ARE NOTHING, YOU SUCK AND YOU CAN NEVER EXCEED EXPECTATIONS! DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.

2009-08-04T15:07:00.000+08:00

DUH DUH DUH

I want go climb. I want to. Not now though.

2009-08-02T15:13:00.000+08:00

What the fuck is wrong with you Haqiz. You make misery, you make pain, you caused problems and you never realize it. Grow up Haqiz, you are 17, mature enough. You are just plain stupid. CB, no wonder everyone can get disappointed with you. You are just not good enough, don't even know how to be perfect.

GAD Haqiz.

2009-08-02T01:09:00.001+08:00

You need to learn, you need to adapt. There's no other way, you got to change.

Reminder to myself.

2009-08-01T00:29:00.002+08:00

And someday, you realize that what you think is enough, never really filled the cup.

2009-07-19T16:02:00.001+08:00

Happy monthsary! :D

2009-07-19T01:54:00.002+08:00

Immaturity. Stereotype. Exists in school, in CCA, in NCC.

No use just saying amongst yourselves, let it out. Im fed-up. Its SO hard to maintain the peace. I cant stay on the fence forever. I got to make a choice. A decision.

BBSS NCC SEA, i know you people read my blog, and im fed up with problems brewing up in the unit. Its time to grow up, think maturely. We are ONE. ONE UNIT. There should not be any cracks in it. Unsatisfied with a small matter, don't make a big fuss. Time to learn to take it in and move on. Grow up. NCC cadets serve with pride and dedication, let the seven corps value guide you.

It feels sucky to drag my feet to school., already anticipating the insult you will get. Just take it in haqiz. Just take it in.

2009-07-09T22:42:00.002+08:00

H-E-L-L-O!

Mid-semester test is craaaaaaaaaap. Only got back Cad so far, and yea 92/100. Seems good huh? But im more worried about the other two. Going to exam without much confidence, knowing that a fail is a high possibility. Mechanics tmrw morning and we are going to have a new lecturer. Sucks. Mr Gan was great. But i have to face reality, he's retired and we are going to have an old Indian lecturer. Nothing will go wrong i hope.

Rock-climbing the rage now. Climb and climb. Trying hard to improve my technique and get my strength up. And yea, my grip strength. Having seniors who mentors, guide and teach with patience; thats a good start. Up to me now.

NCC is a bore now. No major activities in HQ till September? BORING! School training from now on. Opening Ceremony coming, cant wait. Contingent Commander for GOH. GEEEEEEEEEE, holding sword! YEA! HAHAHA!!

Having a wonderful person in your life is just amazing. LALALALA!! :D

boreeeeeeeeed.

2009-07-01T18:17:00.000+08:00

C/OFFR Haqiz has evolved to C/2LT Haqiz!!

2009-07-01T10:24:00.002+08:00

Hello again unknown readers.

Im having an identity crisis. Moving on to poly has made me somehow lost touch with my race. Yes i do have a malay classmate. But we converse in english, not malay. Sometimes i wonder if it has happen since i was in primary school. Having a class full of chinese peeps and it doesnt help that sometimes that they insult my race or any others. Yes, i admit have insulted other races sometimes in the past or maybe even now? But i do it at the spur of the moment and the sense of guilt still hangs over me.

Whatever it is right now, I don't want to lose touch with my people. Allah, help me.

2009-06-24T22:32:00.003+08:00

Spec Course over! WOOOO!! Normal sleeping time?

APC of Frigate 1. A nice experience. I just cant forget the funny moments during the course. It just cheers me up. Abit though. My cadets appraisal for me? Strict, fierce and funny??

Weird.

2009-06-18T20:51:00.002+08:00

35th AKE!

Somewhat a good 3 days spent. Jai Ho all the way Sea Cadet Officers!

2009-06-09T23:36:00.003+08:00

Howdy mate?

9 June. My day. How did it went? GREAT. All due to my RRRRRRRRRRR. :D hahaha.

Oh, yah. On Sunday, went for a chalet. 2 days only. BUT i had a great, awesomest, wonderful, superb, damn damn damn fun time there. Yea, got my R. :D But the rest, Mavis, Yanlan, Hanyi and Yu Yang were part of it too. Too bad Karthi couldn't come, if not it would be better. Went Wild, Wild, Wet for the first time(sad, i know) haha the place isn't that great for an adolescent like me, just find it better for kids. GEEEE, "Shiok River" wasn't that shiok! I got bullied, ALOT. :( haha but yea, it was great fun. Ular-lah is fun, i think for the 3 or 4 times we took it, i posed for the camera readily, then laughed at the picture later. It was a great time relaxing after a crazy first term in school.

Had BBQ afterwards, didnt eat cause of some reasons. Went Macdonalds with R, chatting with her is just (inserts word). Then, went back bathed and got ready for midnight movie. While slacking in the room, R and Mavis asked the rest to go out cause they need to settle some stuffs first. So i just went down with the rest and waited at a table. Watched Han Yi and Yu Yang play poker cards. Was surprised afterwards. PRIVATE. :D Fast-forward to after the movie. Wanted to go to Red House, but didnt in the end. haha. We then make up for it by watching scary videos on youtube. And then, one by one slept. Leaving me alone at 5am. Slept at 6, woke up at 8. Bathed then we all went to Macdonalds(AGAIN) for breakfast. Wanted to watch movie at Bugis but the horror show we wanted just finished showing. So slacked at the new shopping mall at Bugis. Went home around 3.

Stepped into the house and straightaway studied for my PPCDL theory test. "Mugged" for two hours then went school for the test. AND I PASSED!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Practical on 18 July, cant wait. haha. Like finally after 2 tries.

Waited for 12am. Countdown to MY day. hehe. AND THANKS TO THE PEOPLE WHO WISHED ME!!! :D

R, Syahidah, Nurul Mardiah, Afidah, Fatin, Ramizah, Dad, Faris, Sheryl(who wished me twice; sms and blog! loves!), Nabil, Chermaine and Danish. [by SMS]

Alvis, Jiaxun, Nabilah, Rashid, Farisa, Pei Ru, Peilin, Matthew, Farrah, Debbie, Brandon, Jia Cong, Hwee Ping, Liana, Ashu, Adel, Ningzhen, Joel, Zhu Yi, Ammarah, Simraan, Firdaus, Faliq, Victor, Yu Xuan, Jonathan, Bro, Azyan, Kak Shasha, Viknesh, Fred, Shafiq, Abg Enal, Mark Lin, Gary, Rebecca, Amir, Jia Jun, Khairul, Bertrand, Simah, Mavis, Aind, Wei Jia Jun, Mark Romario, Derek, Daphne, Chen Yu, Daniel, Uma, and Aznita(who can post on my wall for some reason) [via Facebook]

Kurtz, Pei Ru, Rashid, Clarence, Nabilah, Farrah, Idayu, Nadhirah, Celine, Hui Yin, Ili, Nazirul, Jing Yi, Elliot, Nazri and Yan. [MSN]

Sheryl Seah, Aisyah, Mavis and Nadia. [through their blog. maybe others have?]

THANKS TO THESE PEOPLE!! :DD You made my day! Though R still made it the best. :D

Had my birthday dinner at Mad Jack! A great place to dine! Ordered black pepper grilled chicken and steak with brown sauce. Was super hungry. I must say, the food is damn niceeeeeeeeeee. :D and they staff gave us a free slice of cake. So nice of them. The people there are super friendly! Took photos all. All in the new camera but waiting for my bro to upload. hahaha lazy.

OKAY OFF TO REST! TMRW NEED REPLY 51 Facebook wall posts!! SO LAZY! :(

LOVES!! :D

2009-06-08T21:20:00.002+08:00

Oh how i wish i wasn't naive. Oh, how i wish i wasn't stupid. Oh, how i wish i wasn't dumb. Right now, things change dramatically. What was i thinking?

9 June tmrw. 17 tmrw. A new age tmrw. YET i still need to learn even more.

Reflect haqiz. REFLECT......

2009-05-28T21:56:00.001+08:00

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Im just happy today. HAPPY! HAPPY!! :D

2009-05-23T18:02:00.002+08:00

Had a great day yesterday. Woooooooo. But i kept asking something, tsk, im so stupid.

Had NCCDP selection. haha. Clare and me got in! Without any selection! 'Cause got no other people? hahaha. Fun fun. Relaxed after some minutes of tension after that while waiting for SM. I got contingent commander and clare got Contingetnt 2IC, since clare the Parade 2IC for BBSS school opening. Need to brush up my sword drills! So sucky la just now. Aint good enough. Will work hard!! happy happy!

2009-05-17T22:02:00.002+08:00

Its a chance. Now or never.

Freaking out. Korean stars are the dope now. Its like so addictive. And like so many pretty girls (i still want my RRR :D) and guys who can dance damn well. Makes me want to dance. Sadly, i have the body of a robot and dancing is like a total NO-NO! Still, Koreans are cooooool. hahahaha

This week made smile alot. Thanks to someone eh? Those moments felt soooooooo, special. :D love you supergirl. :-*

lalalalala, moving on, rock-climbing is such a great sport. Just fell in love with it after my first climb at school's wall. CANT WAIT TO CLIMB AGAIN!! TMRW AFTER WORKSHOP!!! WOOOOOOO!! hahaaha

I know two frisbee girls already. One is malay-look-a-like ZOE TANG, then the other is the act-fierce-but-so-cant-make-it MOJO JOJOAN! always bumbed to them. Then the evil mojo jojoan will give me the "fierce" face and i will just laugh at it. hahaah BONNY BOXY!!! so lameeeeeeeeee. :P

Oh yahhh, DFRSM will cease to exist next year! hahaha anira cant get in already!! :P so the reason was? people got fooled by the name. -.- dont they check the website? i mean, its already in School of MM; an engineering school. Obviously it will be an engineering course? TSK TSK. I feel excited about my future now. I mean im like part of only two batches who takes DRFSM. Its like so specialised and unique. CANT WAIT MANN. :D

Going to sleep now. I need rest for my climb tmrw! woooooo!

2009-05-11T01:11:00.002+08:00

Mother oh mother.

Today's a great day. :) LALALALALALALALALA~

Peace out. Peace over. WAHAHAHA!

OKAY. Im high. Sleeping now. Tmrw got OC project and workshop. AND I WANNA CLIMB!!! Blahhh, can't wait. hahaha

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2009-05-09T16:05:00.003+08:00

YOYOYOYOYOYO!!!

Not posting so long seems weird. ANYWAY, I had a cool week. Lollipop at zouk was unexpectedly fun. Dancing was quite fun though it was damn squeezy. And the music wasn't that good, most were SP's own dee-jays so can't really expect much? Had good time with all my friends and classmates. Shame, went home early. Good point? A free ride home and rest for school the next day.

Got a new friend. Joan Chien. And Singapore sucha a small world. She knows some of my sec school friends through OBM. And there i thought she will be a totally new stranger to me. Oh well, what to do?

Coughing the whole week isn't fun. And coughing for almost 3 weeks doesn't seems fine, right? Gahhh, i hope i'm not that seriously sick........................

There's seemed to be a new club in SP. Mat Club. Founded by a malaysian, it aims to "unite" all Mats. Catching no balls?? Come over to my class and you will know.

Poker on Facebook is alot of funnnn. Thanks to Kak Farah, i play poker everyday. Its fake money though. I only got $40k plus but considering i just started and still a noob, impressive rate i must say. Aiming to get $1million. On a winning streak now! :)

BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Never got into soccer team. Playing with players with high ego isnt going to work. Damn, blew it. So in the end, I joined Sports Club, Rock Climbing and Dee-jay. I think i will spend more time on Sports Club and Rock Climbing. Yeaaaaa. CLIMB CLIMB CLIMB!! :D

In other words, You gotta step out of your shell to move on.

2009-04-29T19:42:00.002+08:00

YOOOOO.

Barely recovered. Yea, down with flu. Superrrr sucky. Cause school just started and I can't afford to skip the first few weeks. Must make a good impression with the lecturers you seeeee. And make close friendships too. You never know when they could be of a greater help to us. Yah, so make my way to school everyday faithfully, been late only twice i think? But this week almost late on a number of times, sick and wake up late.

Lessons has been interesting. I got an ang-moh lecturer who i can impersonate very well. And although his accent isn't that thick or strong or whatever it is, i still FIND it hard to understand him. But his kind, if i skip i don't think he will mind? Then there is my class tutor, PT GAN! Funny guy, his way of greeting us? A long "HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO" with a funny tone. And everytime, my class, DRFSM/1B/21, will laugh wildly at his antics.

Poly life seems fuunnnn. I want to experience moreeeeee. But one thing i don't like about poly? The F''king expensive transport fees. I spent like over $40 on that in two weeks? :( im poooooor.

Would you like to donate to "Let's get Haqiz richer and let him shop more" fund?

2009-04-28T08:36:00.000+08:00

Sick. Will update at night.

2009-04-22T18:12:00.003+08:00

How cool is that?

2009-04-19T23:52:00.002+08:00

There i go, trying hard as i could. It still wouldn't move, though someday i hope it would.

Just got back from MKE, paternal cousins planning for outing and a haircut. MKE was fun. The LAN gaming place with 4-5 computers linking up to play games. Uber cool. Admin was rushed as per normal. Cadets are being abit blur and have to rush through everything.

Congratulations to the 6 cadets who made it through to AKE too.

I just dont get it. Why must you fall for her? Wtf is wrong with your brains? Because of your actions, now all of us are suffering. I shall use Farrah's trademark. You MOFO! You still ain't backing down? Nevermind, I will prove my worth and show how really good i am that you will doubt yourself. FCUK YOU! ass

2009-04-17T10:38:00.002+08:00

Im off to MKE untill sunday night. So this blog wont be updated till, let's say monday?

Last words,

You been the best i had.

2009-04-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

Maybe i took it for granted.

2009-04-07T21:33:00.001+08:00

fcuk you.

2009-04-05T14:49:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

booooooooooooooooooooooo

2009-04-03T09:39:00.002+08:00

Hello people.

Just wanna say that I have

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GAINED WEIGHT! i know some of you may say its nothing but, my weight last year was 50! Super skinny. This year it has gone up to 55! hahahaha but I think I look the same. I guess its muscle mass laaa. :)

What Horrible Thing

2009-03-31T23:53:00.002+08:00

I just came back from Air Camp FEAST. And the whole time, I gotta to tahan some sort of infection on my leg. Infection to simply put it. All mouquitos bites, cuts and some blisters got infected. Sucks big time. I couldn't walk properly during the whole camp. Got back home and went to the clinic and got bandaged all over. A possibility it could be Soil's Disease or something like that. Abit dangerous don't ya think so?

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On a positive note, I learn new things. Like how to dispatch people from the Flying Fox Tower. Kinda cool. And I tried High Elements for the first time. Scary, considering my fear of height. Archery was great, I could shot three bullseyes in a row. Cool huh? Played alot of new games. E.g. C&C Generals, CS source, Left 4 Dead and one other, forget the title of the game. Great, im getting better in C&C. Not too good with CS and bad with L4D. Played pool too, my third time playing, good effort la.

On a whole, a good start to the week excluding the leg infection thing.

P.S. Rashid sending me CS. So long leh. :/

WOOOOOOTS!

2009-03-28T00:32:00.002+08:00

LALALALALALALALALALALALA~

weirdo me. -.-

On "bright" side, NCC was horrible. I meant AAC was horrible. Badly planned. Need to change some things. Super hot also, felt like fainting or die-ing. hahaha.

You people can hear that? Can hear?

.......

The bed is calling me! Got to go. hehehe

Next Stop

2009-03-27T09:22:00.000+08:00

Gotta make a move.

It Sucks

2009-03-26T21:54:00.001+08:00

Know your limits. Fuck, im just so pathethic.

Camp Feast

2009-03-24T19:23:00.002+08:00

HELLO! :)

Just got back from Camp Feast for Sea District Phase 1. First camp as instructor and it was a good experience. Was APC for Platoon 2 with Farhana as their PC. Farhana is great and super fun to look at when she is angry. :P Sec ones this year seemed so immature. Most of them don't even know how to differentiate finger on your lips and hands cover your lips. Its like DUMB luh. Not saying that theyare purely dumb but just that their potential are not unleashed yet.

Trolley party was an easy job, just that the sun will be our worst enemy. I'm getting darker, regaining the colour tones of my secondary school days. Great, being tanned is niceeeeeee. Food as usual sucked. Really sucked.

Right now, I'm having a hard time. There's too many stuffs in my mind. And everything just cross each other out. Sucks to be me now.

Off, I want to try and do A-maths. I want to get back and improve on it. Cause, SCHOOL IS STARTING!!

GO HAQIZ GO! GO HAQIZ GO!

You And I

2009-03-21T11:32:00.002+08:00

I'm a bad decision maker. I hate my guts, its just takes me to the wrong place. I've been different these days. Eversince Os ended, I've changed, I dont find myself the lively and optimistic guy I was in secondary school. Maybe circumstances have changed, but seriously, this getting way out of hand. I need to find the old me coupled with a mature thinking. That will be sooooooo good.

For now? Let me just sink to desperation.

Back

2009-03-20T09:55:00.003+08:00

Hello people.

Just came back from two back-to-back camps. First was Bukit Batok Ncc annual camp. Had a good time there. Juniors are improving which i wanted the most. Common, you can be better! :)

Next had a Advanced Drill Course from 16/03 to 19/03 at HQ. Superb camp. Met seniors from other intakes and districts. I think its such a good camp. Since now i'm a Supernumerary, i shall do my part as a drilll instructor to teach my cadets better and serve NCC in another way now. NCC day, i want to take Contingent Commander or Sea Ensign. But most probably Contingent Commander. So to my Part As, look out for me during NCC Day Parade.

Im getting worse. :/ Feel alone everywhere i go. No queries.

Sentosa!

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2009-03-06T10:51:00.002+08:00

Damage done.

Am I turning 17? I wonder after yest. How immature of myself. How immature I could be. Maybe I cant even grow up. Damn. :/

POOT

2009-02-27T10:15:00.003+08:00

HELLO

I just cant figure out something. Im confused.

Last few days was great. Went out everyday, and not get bored at home. Last friday AKE prep was good. BBSS did great. Monday helped out Gan Eng Seng B boys soccer team. They got no coach so i just helped out la. Not saying im good or what but i got some knowledge, why not share with them. Tues, where did I go? Wed helped Gan Eng Seng again, match was postponed to next Monday. Team was good though quite slow in recovering. Yest go Trainfire at Hq, super chaotic, I took two schools. And they were super enthusiast about SAR 21. -.- Well, at least they could do everything well. Packed and changed they went work after that. Oh yaaaaaa, Im working Mond to Thurs at StorHub. Somewhere la. Job is okay for now. But I wont want to work here when school starts. hint - its quite far from my house.

Im bored. Will bath soon then go Medical Checkup. SP need sehhh. I know NP dont need. I wonder about the rest?

Before I go off, I just want to say I finally a person whom i talked and chat and fooled and SMS-ed with and never her before. She is none than NADIA. I was sweet-talked to put this. So yah. haha. :P I dont have her pic. But just click on her link above and you can see her macho face. haha :)

haha

2009-02-17T15:24:00.001+08:00

HELLO!

I got a job. hahahahaha if you get a call asking if you want to sell your house, its NOT me. :)

oh the boredom.

2009-02-09T18:31:00.002+08:00

h-e-l-l-o-!

Today is a cool day for me at home. Since i slept yest at 1am. Obviously i will wake up late. True enough, i woke up around 10. But guess what? I on-ed my PS2(yes still stuck with this :/) and played till 12 plus. Bored, then proceeded to use the computer. Then i watched stupid videos on Youtube. Its not porn rashid. Yah. Then blog-hopped to some people's blogs. Yea, like theres a war going on now. Its fun to watch but at the same time its hurting the unit. So, i have to do something right? By the time i was bored with the comp, its was 3pm. And i wanted to bath, but lazy. So sat on the sofa and watched TV. NO SHOWS! It sucks not to have Starhub Cable TV. :( And yea, finally bathed at 4pm. Played Red Alert 2 again. (I have finished the two campaigns 6 times already. So sick of it now.) Played soccer with my young bro. Obviously i win, he's faaattt. Just like Farrah. OOOPS. :P

IM BORED AT HOME! Maybe Nadia was right. I got no life. -.- haha

Anyway, called Chen Yu's workplace, asked got any vacancy, and the guy asked me to msg him my name and age and said he will call back again. Wait so long, till now no reply. Bus-third. Anyway, will be working on 13 and 14 Feb. Selling flowers. Valentine's Day mah. But sad, cannot celebrate with ______. :/

Bye.

yah, late post.

2009-02-02T21:06:00.002+08:00

!olleh

Got my postings, now another wait to go to school. :( months of waiting for results was terrible. i did nothing at all. Except for 56th, most of the time i'm like at home, doing nothing. I couldn't find work, and now finding work will not be worth. But still i shall try. But again, most places I go only accepts 18 and above. -.-

On a good note, i got into my first choice, which is Resort Facilities Services and Management. I wonder if the course can allow me to go to Uni easily. 'Cause i really want a degree. And maybe Masters? Yea, it will look good on my resume. And i get a higher pay. :) But must work hard in polytecnic first then can advance right? haha.

I guess February will be filled with NCC. Since i'm free and sea district is always shorthanded, i volunteer myself. :) I'm such a good Cadet Officer. Oh yah, this year's sec ones applying for Ncc Sea seems to have some potential. Well, i hope they don't disappoint. Part B and C, do me proud and impress the Part A over the next few trainings.

Last Saturday was a great day. Its VERY rare for my whole maternal side to meet up and have dinner together. Well, I'm so glad 97% came for Fahrul's Birthday dinner at Sakura's. And cousins camwhored alot. Yea, i'm guilty of taking too many pictures. Sad thing is, I don't have the pictures. Too lazy to get from syahidah or matin. :) went home at 3. Now that is a real gathering.

APRIL, please come faster! I want go school! I miss school! More personally, I MISS YOU! :(

There goes.

2009-01-22T23:06:00.003+08:00

Hello. :)

andddddddddddd im fed up. fed up. my tummy been aching since just now. crap, feeling sucks. i wonder what i ate till it became like that.

and i will reply tags only for today. :) and it dates back to 3 Jan 2008. The rest malas laaaaaaa. :P

Farrah: Not what you think la! :P

fatin: wahhhhhhh must call eh?!!! :P haha will will call. hmmmmmmm told already right? haha

mary: YO ADIK! ermmmm, ceiling? haha :P

tuty: tak la, awak yang klakar rashid. haha OOOPS!

Pei San: obviously rmbr right? and oh, i chatted with you on msn already! -.-

Farrah: HI!

mary: thanks adik! haha tapi dah dpt, and satisfied! :)

Khairul: YUP! heard about it. will send my name to maj oliver asap!

fatin: HI GILER-ER! :P

cynthia: who are you? haha

Farrah: eh kau okay tak? haha

clarence: haha welcomed! True true.

idayu: after i update ok? haha thanks!

fatin: surprised to see kan kan? haha im so goooooooooood. and you are welcomed! :D

Acahbelo/Aisyah: HELL-O! haha hello laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Farrah: HI TETEK! dah lah gmbr tu hari cleavage! hahaha :P

boyfriend: kan update niiiiiiiiiii. haha :) will be update more regularly la. dont worry. EH MISS YOU LA! haha

Nebyla: i did. and in fact i LOL, ROFL, LMAO. evrything laaaaa. because of?!! MINAH SHOT!!!! HAHAHA :P:P:P:P

AMALINA: woah, dont tell people la. SHHHHHHHHHH! its a secret! haha :)

Ok done. And OMG. I miss Concord people alot. And some have changed. But still good what when i met up with them yesterday. Went East Coast and evrything, so DAMN FUN! haha Shall update on it next time! i promise! :)

Going to WC now.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

infinity disease

2009-01-14T23:35:00.002+08:00

Hey all. I realized i need to start updating more regularly. BUT, there is usually nothing to talk about. BUT again, this time i have. :)

Continue about my O level results. So, yah, i did got 14 points for my L1R4. Which to me is good enough. Considering I only started studying like around, let me guess, two weeks before each paper? haha. Some of you may not believe but thats your problem. I lazed around during my last year in a school that saw me through my adolescent years. Its the truth anyway. Okay, this is my results.

English - B3
Combined Humanities - B3
Mathematics - B3
Additional Mathematics - C5
Physics - B3 (surprise surprise)
Chemistry - E8 (spoiler!)
Malay - B4

So thats about it. Since my CCA is an A1, so L1R4 should be (3+3+3+3+4)-2=14. Compare that to my prelims, which was 24. :) hahaha you can bet i was surprised to the max. I dont look L1R5 if you notice. 'Cause i think JCs isnt for me so why bother anyway? And i got my choice of course already. Its Resort Facilities Service and Management. Sounds chim? Its more of an engineering course so i will be engineer, which sounds cool? haha On a serious note, its quite a good field so i decided on it. Bioengineering is second, if i get this i will still be an engineer but i work with doctors and scientists! Lagi cool.....

Okay, its 11.50pm. And all i want to say is, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FATIN, CLARENCE, HAFIZ! 17 year old already. Must feel lucky cause you are older than me by 5months. To Clarence; dude thanks for the help in NCC or studies, appreciate it lots! Will be working with you for 2 or 3 more years? haha see you soon! To Hafiz; you are an asshole! haha kidding, funny guy, i wonder if you will be with C? Anyway, glad to know you and you have been a great company, still rmbr when we went out to buy our prom stuffs, like stupid people la! And good luck in your whatever Nitec course you are in! Last but not least, to Fatin; what should i describe you? hmmmmmmmmm, a bitch? asshole? NO! But the best bestfriend you can have! :) Great to know you real well. Still rmbr the incident last year? When i err, did something? haha i was stupid la! But lucky you forgave me and we are normal again. Its just great to have you around you knw? haha Good luck in your O levels this year! Do me proud! :D

GOSH! Im still down though. Issues. Hanging on, barely. I just regret what i did. But still i have to face the consequences. Believe in me again will you? Please Please.

Okay, i got to gooooooooooooooooooooo. BYEZXZXZX! twit twitty!

Rollercoaster ride.

2009-01-12T22:05:00.002+08:00

WOAH! I cant believe i got 14 points for L1R4. And i cant believe that led to another thing that till now affects me.

Period.

Oh, the fate.

2009-01-11T22:54:00.003+08:00

Blimey, tmrw is the day. And im shit nervous about it. Who isn't right? And i dont want to go the ITE, i want a poly education after this. No wasting of time going for Nitec or higher Nitec. Diploma straight! Bioengineering is tempting, Outdoor Adventure Learning too. But it all depends again on tmrw.

I guess i made promises to people to be optimistic. Be positive evrytime. Well i got to what. I have to accept it somehow. And you, it will be better if you were there.

And yest was Kakak Shasha birthday. And oh, was it a big surprise to her! Matin had spent like hours to plan it and days to execute it. haha Exaggerations. Anyway, went to Matin's hse on thurs and friday to prepare the stuffs. Making the masks was coooool, i like the glue gun but it took up alot of time. Finished on thurs around 12am. Then slept at the sofa. :) i was tired la! had Ncc Trainfire before that. And next day was sch Ncc training. Slacked and had lots of fun with nazirul(we aint gay by the way) took videos of us pranking around, ok more of me. I love sch unit. :) enjoyed then went to Matin's hse again. This time did the Ipod Touch. Its kinda the bigger version where people can take pictures of it. There will be pictures if im too vague la. And it turned out GREAT. Really, and Matin, thank me la. I helped abit la.

So basically evrything was done except for the deco in the birthday girl's hse. I shall skip this, its too long and boring. A picture says a thousand words, so what can a couple do? Get a writing pad and start writing.

There. Thats all. Back to praying and hoping and (insert word) and (insert another word) and etc......

I feel crappy.

So its 2009. Then?

2009-01-03T13:29:00.002+08:00

2009! It seems quite odd. Its like im so used to 2008 already and still thinks that 2009 is still far away. Alot of things has happened in 2008. My first girlfriend in 3 years? Yah, and it cultivated to be a sad ending. I still think im right but who cares? I shan't comment further, but my close ones shld knw what i mean. AND being the RSM of Bravo Company was sooo cool when i could scold people anyhow and they cant get me back. hahaha. Also being the seniors in the unit makes it a better experience. Cool or what!

OH yah! Getting fourth in school for cross-country is great, when considering i don't train much in it and still get a medal, thats like lucky to the max! Representing school for x-country and getting 100+ but definitely below 140, over 350+++ runners, is wonderful! I still hold an edge over other people. :) lalalala. Football was okay. Used more like substitute but still got playing time. Still remember the subs sat in one straight row and doing the wave. Thats what make the subs great people!

Teachers? I never met better ones before. Mr Quek was a big influence and inspirational teacher. Gave all the reality bites which hit us hard. Miss Lau with her trademark "SHUT UPP!!!" Who cant forget Mrs Chua, the ever smiling maths teacher who never gave up on her students, i swear she is that damn good. I think she still doesnt know what horny is. hmmm....... Cikgu Junaidah! Her jokes are so cold and mean, and since im always the focal point of jokes, I get the worst. But still, she is fun. The rest, Miss Yee, Mdm Aisyah and Mrs Toh? Its the same they are a great bunch of teachers. :)

Who cant forget 4e5? THE BEST CLASS!!! YES YOU HEARD OR SAW IT, 4E5 is like the best, if not the greatest of the best of most wonderful class ever! The company everyday who never fails to stop laughing brought on by the constant jokes the is being made by different people. Those around me, Fransis, Chen Yu, Amala, Xue Ling, Leon always helped in me in one way and i thank you for that! Words cant explain or describe the fun we all had together. *i sound gay in this paragraph -.-*

Anymore? I dont know if I missed out anything. For people, i shan't put on blog cause it useless when the memories of the persons should be kept in the heart. :)

New year' resolutions?
-Be a more pious person but not too pious. hahaha
-Have a better interest in studies.
-Be a model Cadet Officer.
-Improve on stamina, finish a marathon by end of year.
-To be more polite and know my priorities right.
lastly, make my queen happy. :)

BYEZXZXZXZ!

2008-12-29T19:39:00.005+08:00

Hello. Wondering why i put this picture up? BECAUSE ......... I miss Cubers LAA! haha. i miss all the people inside here. 56th cant be the only place i meet this bunch of people. Must go out and have a gathering sometimes. AND this wednesday got outing with them. If have la, depends on the number people going also. I hope all could come, if possible. But i knw confirm cant la. Its New Year's eve. Some will be with their family or loved ones. Nevermind, still got most of them, satisfied. :) GOOSSSHHHHHHHHHHH! i want to do all the claps again. eg. one haqiz's clap! "Stop it ehhhh!" *while giving the finger*

Crap, end of years coming. Will do my resolutions tmrw; on the blog. And its the new year for Muslims. YEA! Isnt it cool? We get to celebrate two new years, for muslims la.The feeling is so so much fun! And im all set to be a better person. :) At least now i dont spurt vulgarities as much as last time. hahaha great improvement. :D i will be a good boy next year. all thanks to someone eh.

I'm BOOOOOOOOOOOORRRREEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! Home is so boring. I want to go out. Be it play football or windowshopped or meet friends, i just want to go out. But nobody ajak-ed me, so i kinda feel hmmmmm i-dont-knw-la. Some sort of paiseh you know.-.-

Lisetening to Backstreet Boys right now. If you dont know them, you are born dumb. My first fav act. Still rmbr dancing to a Backstreet song, i danced pathetic laa, common i was 8 la! SO blur last time. Now like still the same, hahaha. Sad one member went out of the group, i forgot the name, lazy to check. Saw them from being adolescent-girls fav to now mature guys, sporting stupid moustaches or beards. hahaha. But still they are great. *i feel gay, but WHO CARES?!!*

tatatatatatata. i updated people, like finally. going off now.

and farrah, im not handsome la! im not im not. and the news didnt matter to me at all la. :D

2008-12-18T13:09:00.001+08:00

well, HELLO!

Ok, Mr Cool is back again. :) Hmm, alot of things and events happen so i think this will be a long post. Sorry about it, it can be quite mundane too, cause im too lazy to upload the pics. Next time allright? Dont woeey, maybe i will cut short.

Time check: 1300hrs

Ok, so where should I start? hmmmmm. Oh yea! 56th Cadet Officer Course! Fun Fun Fun Fun x890589348593428. Lalala, my first course, duh it will be fun. :D Syndicate 3 is all cool and great and power and fantastic and much much moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Gee, Im too excited.

First week was abit funny. Cause we don't know each other much and evryone was being cautious. hahaha but it was ok by the end cause people like haiman, hafiy, haron, azyan, farisa, syahirah, ian, kenny, fred........(the list goes on) made it great. hahahahhaha :DDDDD wait, i need to tone down.

Ok, so first week was quite full of lectures, hearing the instuctors put a sleeping spell on evryone, excluding me. :) Eh, im good ok. I pity the lecturer so I just sit up straight and listened to him. Luckily, Nescafe Mocha and Mentos kapt the energy in me, if not i think i would be snoring loudly insde theaterette. But then, I find the lectures all good and benefitial. Like the most disobedient person in the world is yourself, and there 4 different perspectives of yourself and more. Glad I went through the lectures and not sleep, I gain knowledge and im hungry for more(sounds like Sylar? oh well)

First week thurs had adventure training, learning how to be instructors and all. Learn basic safety thingy, i forget la. Important for camps like Camp Feast. Next day had first aid course and CPR course. Kissing the dummy is fun and i made a joke about a friend of mine who had only one eye and its head and body were of the same size. First Aid was great, people practised the primary dressing and secondary dressing on me, I literally looked like a mummy who had a bad 'hair' day in Nee Soon Camp.

Second week was all lectures. AGAIN. haha but still good for me la. Col Png is one great lecturer. I think he was either a commando or Guards. And being OCS commander is such a big job. I want.

Third week had SAFTI challenge i think. Was damn excting seeing all the exhibits at Army museum, hmm Im the 10th Chief of Defence? hahahaha. :P Ok, could have been better if not for my stupid shit wanting to come ot the whole day. Called the safety guy and he sent me to toilet in his car. Shitted for like 30mins, relieved after that. :D But didnt know where my group go so just relaxed at the finish point.

Rehearsals for POP started on wed. Feeling all excited and nervous for friday. Thurs had course debrief, many complained about food. Yahh, lunch SUCKED. Not filling and throw my appetite away evrytime. AND i havent got my camp pass yet. Blah, most got it already. Im angry!! i want to see my face laaaaaaaaaa. the person laughed when she took my pic so i want to see how i looked! :D

POP ON FRIDAY WAS A BLAST! Wait, before that had course certificate presentation. :DDDDD MY first real course ended and now am a Cadet Officer. :DDDDDDD i likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Ok, pop was damn (insert words that describes how happy and excited i was). Was actually scared i would faint and just lie there motionless cause i didnt ate much. But then, i survived and march passed with a big grin on my face. Ok not really big but still evident. :D

Performance?? Well, i shall be bias. Syndicate 3's was AWESOME!!!! :D Cherography was great and people danced well and im getting more bias here. :P The other syndicats were also good. Went around meeting people and took pics. Sad, adik couldnt make it. But then was surprised to see three girls, three iritating girls. :P nah, kidding. Glad you three came. Funnnnnnnnn. thanks farrah, mizah and fatin.

Time check: 1406

Time check: 1438 (went to ate)

Ok. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. 56th Cade Officer Course was wonderful and now im back to waiting for O's result.

Two days after POP, I went for a holiday with my paternal side at Port Dickson. A cool place but our accomadation there sucked due to low budget. Nevertheless, I enjoyed the times there spent with my relatives in Singapore and Malaysia. And oh, I got two suuperrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr cute nieces. Wished i could brought them back here to Singapore but circumstances wouldnt allow it. :( Fatin and Isha are really cute(it runs in the blood apparently). hahahahahahaha :D

Reached home on tues and on-ed my phone. And a great surprise awaited me. :D ahhhhhhhhhhhh, so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet. :DDD it made my day even though i was so tired. HAPPY LAAAAAAAAAAA!!

ok, nothing happened yest so yea thats about it. im lazy la.

Syndicate 3; CUBERS!

2008-12-01T20:45:00.000+08:00

Sorry if i did not update for such a long time. Been in camp since last monday, though its a stay out course, the fatique level is still high. Im still tired and really sorry for not updating and not replying tags. Will be back in full force on 13 dec. Maybe abit of updates during these times till 13 dec.

Going off now. Journals; sucks yet still important.

Bye. Cubers! Cube Cube.
i love you; rswc. :D

Prom!

2008-11-23T17:53:00.002+08:00

Hello!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH, this week best best. Monday prom is fun, not cause of the event but the food, people and pictures. The host was cool and seemed to be insulting himself, but who cares right? We just need entertainment and he brought it. Only thing was some performance wasnt that good. I kept walking around and played PSP at one point. But still FUN! Aiya, thought i didn't take photos with everyone, still im satisfied.

I only put some photos.

Clique.

Outside of RTC.

NCC; We are the members of the NCC...Over the land, on the SEA and in the air.

Malay class.

"OI!! Faster laaa!!

2E3 ' 06!

haha, isn't my bowtie nice? People keep commenting on it. Sadly, the bowtie string(?!) broke and now its left on my table. Went home super late, scared kena robbed or mugged. Wait, singapore got muggers?

Tues-no comments. Lucky we didnt get beaten up or robbed. Just that i regretted doing it and I'm sorry.

Wed-Fri. Went for Officer Seamanship Course at IMOS-Changi Naval Base. Journey obviously was faaarrrrr. But had loads of fun there. "Nak spar?" Sea district people are funn. Just hope we can bond more and be active unlike previous batches, all went MIA. Common, we shall make Sea district a new and stronger force!

Blah blah. I dont know why i joined 56th also. Like regret but it will bring benefit to me. No doubt. I cant wait for 58th when Super Abang Adik will reunite. haha faster laaaaaaaaaa. AND i can go back school! Can see teachers and my _______. hahaha FUNFUN!

I going off now, need to buy a white shirt, and pack my stuffs for tmrw!!! ahhhh, im scared.

BYE!

2008-11-17T09:44:00.000+08:00

LALALALALA.

Im hungry. Its 9.45 am. Just woke up and realised to day its graduation night or in other words people call it prom? Im wearing something simple so yea, i hope not too get that much attention. Too much isn't fun. haha I bet im not going to be a prom king cause there are more people who are more attractive and charismatic than me(yes, i admit). Aiya, being there to see your friends for the last times is good enough. Since i got no camera, adik's hp will be used by me. I hope the battery can last though.

Was out for two days last week after O's ended. On thurs, was out with Bam, scouting our stuffs. Wanted to buy but i realised there could be even more cheaper stuffs i wanted at other places. So went back home ard 8.30pm and proceeded to my aunt hse. Do something there la. The next day, I met up with Alif at CCK int, took 190, picked Farrah up from her busstop and talked alot on the journey to Far East to meet Bam and Diyana. Once there we walked and bought our stuffs at Far East. Starbucks is nice. After some time, Diyana went home and Bam sent her to the busstop. The other three waited for him at another busstop and called him after some time but he couldnt pick up cause prepaid low. When we turned, we saw him with Boyfriend, minah and gangster. Ok its, Afidah, Shahidah and Bintang. :P So the girls went shopping somewhere while we guys went to penin. Didnt do much there, just walked ard and Alif was finding an old school Vans shoe. Gave up and went to Long John Silver to eat.

Met the girls again after dinner at City Hall station and trained home. We made a ruckus on the train, i could see alot of people staring at us, but we didnt care much. And people, Bintang is a big bully. :P

On Saturday, went for a briefing in the morning. I wouldnt want to tell anyone, only when I passed out then I will tell you people. Ended late around 1.15pm, followed brother to Braddel Macdonalds. Ate and took 157 then 67 home. Chilled for a while then packed my stuffs for a sleepover and my aunt hse. Had a great dinner there and i was quite full when i stopped eating. Then the cousins watched movie together. Watched a Spanish movie called [rec.]. A great show, the movie is so nice they got a shock watching it. So i recommend this movie to everyone, its available on youtube, i think. By then, i was exhausted, watched Tropic Thunder for a while then dozed off on the couch. Woke up at some time, realised someone was being my cover from the cold fans and just stoned there. Thought alot on things. I guessed im still having troubles.

Morning had roti prata for breakfast. The whole place was quite messy. I set up the PS2 on the Hd tv. We played alot of the old winning eleven. haha had loads of fun. Then around afternoon, Syahidah wanted to go home and changed for her outing with her friends. Walked her to the MRT, talked about matters. Its been so long since i talked to her. I realised something and i needed something else. Im maxed out. Went back and got ready the place for lunch. After lunch, continued the PS2 games and won alot of people, but then lost the final game. Homed after that.

I miss alot of people. Mostly, I miss you. :( Coming January, you will be even further. What to do?

2008-11-12T19:03:00.001+08:00

It has ended. but im still aint happy.

2008-11-05T22:23:00.000+08:00

hello hello.

bye bye.

2008-10-23T11:08:00.000+08:00

O's are fun. Leaving school isn't.

2008-10-03T16:48:00.000+08:00

Hello :D

All isnt that great. Emnity exists even though its been so long. School is divided after the petition. Last week of school is next week.

I got to say goodbye to the school which i have almost adopted to be my second home. Memories of happy and not-so-great moments will linger in the years to come. Friends; most are still here but some are gone. Yea, life in BBSS isnt that great but still its still worth it. Come on, which place has no share of the bitchy-ness that exists everywhere. Just got to live with it.

Hari Raya is much fun. Relatives meet up to make up for lost time. Every moment spent with them is precious. Disagreements may rise but ignoring it will always be so much better.

O's are nearing yet i admit that evrythings isnt going too well. Maybe i dont need luck in the end. Persist on!

Sometimes, these things make some sense.

If you're doing your best, you won't have any time to worry about failure - H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

2008-09-24T22:10:00.000+08:00

Hey :D

School is boring. Prep exam is boring. O level in 3 weeks. Freedom in 8 weeks. Work in 10 weeks.

10 months ago. 3SG only la. Now 1SG. Maybe C/Offr in two months?

2008-09-17T17:01:00.000+08:00

I cant give in all the time. Though it haven't reach my limits, there are signs. I really hope you will change. I cant keep quiet anymore. :/
i love you. :D

2008-09-16T21:19:00.000+08:00

Hey people!

Currently down with fever and flu. My flu is iritating. Its so wet, it can drip down my nose. :( I hate it la. Affects my activities; cant study that much as cant concentrate and i cant even talk properly. Its as if im droning evrytime. F. Sayang, i want you badly. :(

Today only knew about both E and A maths. I got A1 for e-maths, at second look, i got B4. Not disappointed, Improved from a C6. :D Amaths has no improvements. Its still F9, but ithink still improve abit. Gosh, i need to buck up and get a good grade. :D

After O's, im so going out with you. I miss you and count the little yet ever meaningful times we spent together. However small it has been, i know you are great. :D I believe in you, change is coming i know. :D You can do it.

Bye.

2008-09-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

Hey humans! haha :D

Saturday is here and my cousins just went after breaking fast here. After a fortnight without seeing their faces, meeting them was great, enjoying those rare moments togther. It is ever wonderful. Families are always a source of support, through thickk and thin though sometimes they just dont give you the support you need. Speaking of which, tmrw im going to break fast at my maternal aunt's place with all my family members. :D It will be a feast considering my grandmum has 10 children, 30+grandchildren and 4 greatgrandchildren. It sure will be wonderful.

Another thing that's wonderful is my sayang. Im just glad that i met her. A great person she is, i've changed all thanks to her. :D i love you.

Prelims over, alhamdulillah. :D I want my O's to come faster and go even faster. :D

Singapore is great. :D An Olympic medal after 48 years, two new Paralympics medal and hosting F1 next week. Singapore is really great. :D I should buy a shirt that has 'I LOVE SINGAPORE' big big on its front. :D

My two great nephew and niece. Cute huh? One's a joker and the other is my fav bimbo. haha. :D I love you two. :D

Bye. :D Off to get my great sleep.

I love sayang. :D

2008-09-09T16:51:00.000+08:00

Hello. :D

I'm doing fine guys and girls. dont you worry abt me allright? :)

Had amaths paper 2 this morning. bleah, boring again. almost fell asleep. managed to do like 3/4 i think? haha. better la now. last time not even half. :D

feeling hungry these days. i think i lost some weight. shit, i want to gain 8kg more and reach 60. then can have big cute muscles. :D haha. going to hit the gym and my running route after O. and complete my first marathon by next year. :D hopefully.

My bro just bought season 5 of One Tree Hill. Watched first 6 episodes. This drama is damn great. Somehow i could relate my problems to theirs. A sense of similiarlity. Really felt better after that. Life's just aint fair enough. We just got to stand up and earn our rights. :D Sometimes, it doesnt go your way, but learn to adapt we must. Just like my big O's. Almost evryone go through this, its my turn now. No turning back, no regrets. Perform well i shall.

Bye. No pics this time. :D
I just want to hold you close to me and never let you go.

2008-09-07T13:06:00.000+08:00

Hey!

Crap, im still troubled. I admit im feeling lousy these few days. What can i do? :/

Apart from that, there have been some light throughout this ordeal. Im just hoping it will be enough.

Adik and me.

bye.

2008-09-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

Hey yo earth wanderers. :D

Ok, adik sachok nominated me so i do la. haha. I dont want to write the rules la. Its abit tad too long. So if you think you are worthy of being nominated by me, just put the above pic in your blog. :D

This is to Shahidah, i told you already, I like Jason Mraz. Im on both sides but still, in this case, im abit sexist so ....... . :D hahahahaha. And Lucky is nicer than I'm Yours. :P

I think im going crazy over this band, The Changcuters. An Indonesia indie garage band, there were voted most creative band in Indonesia this year. Blah, this band is so cool. :D

The lead vocals has an Elvis-inspired hairdo, bassist and drummer has an indie style hair, the two guitarists has the bowl-head hair style. My fav is Qibil, the one on the extreme left, the lead guitarist. haha. This band really has nice music but too bad, its songs is in Indonesian. :D

Bye.

And you are the one i need the most.

2008-09-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

Evrythings all wrong. Shit, i dont want a life anymore.

2008-09-01T17:43:00.000+08:00

you make me stress all the time. crap, i msged you yet you aint still replying. i feel lousy not hearing from you. please come back, please?

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2008-09-01T12:52:00.000+08:00

Hello. Its a monday, a brand new month and start of puasa or fasting. Yea, i will do the whole month. Well, i try to. :D

Last week's ACES Days was a blast. Concert wasn't too great. haha Dragonforce played (inside joke) The prefects dancing to the music from the phone was damn funny. Not wanting to insult but it seriously was humourous. I wonder what they were thinking, doing those actions. Ipin's singing was great, Josh's too. Pity Nazirul microphone didnt worked, im sure he would have made a good performance.

Went back to class to arrange tables for N level, didnt do much, just drifted from one end of the class to the other, just to avoid the teacher's glance. Im just too lazy to do these stuffs in the morning. :) Following that was the sports carnival. Was put on the soccer team. 7-a-side game and 5 mins for each game. Boring la.

First match was against 3E3 i think. I was playing defence but somehow i went upfront and attack the other team. haha. Won with a penalty shoot-out. I scored one penalty; fooled the keeper completely. :D Next was 4E2. This match was harder, 'cause it was against bigger opponents, seriously, i think i will lose if we ever played arm-wrestling. :( Still, my class won and i got no idea what the score was. I tell you, i was always laughing. Next round was with 3E1. These class are nit-wits. haha. 5 out of 7 were defending in front of their goalpost. When i dribbled the ball, they gave me a clear passage through. haha. They are scared of a nerd. :P Again, we won, and yet still i didnt know the score.

Up next was 4T1. When we stepped onto the pitch, i asked the referee this, "Now what round ar?" And i got a reply which sounds like this, "Final la. You don't know?" haha. Damn i was taken aback. MY class had reached the final without even playing properly and was always laughing. haha. Cool huh? But, we lost 3-1. We ere good but they were better so nevermind la. Took my medal then went to basketball court. Went there and found out 4E5 won 3rd in Captain's Ball and was in contention for a gold medal in handball. haha. My class surprises me. haha. Cheered for my class in handball final and we lost 8-9. Great effort though from my class. :D haha. We got three medals ! :D

4E5 with our medals.

So with that, went to BB to eat with Naz while waiting for D. Talked stuffs and random things. Met up with Rashid and Irfan and went to BB mac. Irfan was bullied the whole time. Taught Naz how to solve Rubiks but he still cant get it and always get amazed when i solve it. haha. Rashid solved the cube in 1 sec. Irfan did it in half of that. haha. Those two jokers. Separated then went window shopping. haha. I want a loafer la. My Hari Raya earnings will go into buying a loafer. A white one to be exact. :D

Ok so, went home with D. :D BLAH BLAH. (you guys arent suppose to know. :P)

Ok, my brother just got into the Star Wars spirit, in view of the latest movie. He downloaded all six episodes and he's still watching them. And he's fav quote? "Luke, i'm your father. NOOOOOOO!!" Stupid Darth Vader. haha.

Gosh, i need to study. A-maths seemed too far for me, must get it back. Motivation: A PS3. haha. No la, its actually a course. A diploma course. I shan't tell now. :P

Bye people. :D

i love you. :D

2008-08-28T17:49:00.001+08:00

Hello again.

Prelims Week 2 over. Crap, quite a rough week. Amaths was horrible. Super horrible. :( Malay paper 2 i think can get a B. I hope so. I want to get my morale up after mid-year o level disaster.

Tues had no paper. But still i went school to study for physics and consultation with Mr Quek. "The Day after Tmrw" Wore homeclothes, didnt get scolded by guard then get scolded by Mr S. Damn la. Look at me as if im one big criminal on the loose. F.

Yest had english paper 1 and 2. Paper 1 was shitty. Wrote nonsense for my compo, i think my marks go down. My compo about service wasnt clearly defined. Crap, i hope whoever marks my paper can understand. Paper 2 is a waste of time. Esp summary. I have an ultimate disliking of it for a long time, why cant they just change the syllabus laaaaaaaaaaaa. Compre aint any fun.

Just now was History and Physics paper 2. I couldnt concentrate well today. Weather was a torture. Freezing cold while doing history, cant even write properly. SBQ was ok. I think i will finally pass SBQ. :D SEQ? I wont comment. Physics was a tad confusing. Ok, maybe very confusing? I dont know. First quest i was taken aback already. Tell me about the rest? One quest that afidah, rashid and me discussed with Mr Quek the other day came out. Only felt confident about though i confused the colour coding for live and neutral wire. :( Still, i want my first pass in physics paper 2. :D

These few days didnt went on without any issues. Im getting impatient though im still holding on. Common, i can do it, so can you-know-who-you-are. Gah, im falling for it.

Tmrw ACES day. Playing soccer for my class. I aint got any boots. :( I want to play GK then! haha. Hope my class lose in skipping. :P I cant skip that good, so they must not skip properly tooo. :D

Ahhh, next week puasa already. Am i prepared? haha. NO! I think something going to happen and i will _____ . No, i must tahan la. Hari Raya one month and three days away. How exciting can it be? haha, all those money. 8) Too bad i got o levels on whole month of Syawal. :( Cant do my annual collection. I only got $150+ only last year. I want more! Then can go shopping. :D

Just remembered about this photo. Jogging with Fatin aka my BF. Nadhirah and Ramizah went along too. Dont know why, i find my hair in this picture nice. :D

Ta-ta. Off im going. Till then. :D p.s. i find you ever wonderful. :D

2008-08-22T17:33:00.000+08:00

Hey people.

Back after some time. Weekend is finally here. Had a great week. :D

Science practical is cool. I mean the procedure is cool. The questions arent. I love my shift. Why? We wake up abit later, go school more relaxed, no need to rush to get seats in bus, can eat earlier, do practical in a cool weather(not too hot or cold; its 1000 to 1130.) and get locked up for only 15 mins. :D haha. Chemistry was fun. Played with chemicals, made up answers and smelt of chlorine after that. Mind you, chlorine isnt funt to deal with.

Physics' was a bore. Questions was hard to understand. I think my graph was pathetic though i think my plan was ok.

Great! Paid o level mother tongue again. Im so going to get an A. :D

Today was chemistry paper 2. Spent one quarter of time looking around, went toilet and fiddle with pencil. Left 3 or 4 questions blank, maybe more? Aiya, chem isnt under 'My-Can-Do-Subjects' list. Physics is. :D

Rubik's Cube on my nerves. I always have to grab hold of it and spin it around to solve it and then do again. Aiya, cant shake it off la. Miracle huh? I only learnt it last week, Thursday in fact. And my record stands now at 1min 10s. haha. Isnt fast but my Cube aint lubricated so it is rough. haha. Im proud of myself. :D And since its only a week, im hoping to go under a minute in a month's time.

Been spreading Rubik's cube among my friend. Teaching them how to solve. Teached like 7 people i think. I dont keep track. I go with the flow. :D haha. Afidah's my best student. haha. DO damn slowly but then at least get to solve. :D

Ok, im so bored. I need someone laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. :( Come here!

Ok this was taken during national day. My wonderful power rangers. :D haha. I dont know where the file is now. :)

2008-08-18T17:33:00.001+08:00

HEY YO ! :D

Sorry for not updating for the past week. Was either plain lazy or busy. :D

Prelims started today. Social Studies was first. Surprisingly, i felt confident about it. I managed to finish SBQ but my first essay was crap :( But i think my SBQ was great. Wrote alot and felt it was quite relevant. Well, we will see. :)

E-Maths was ok. Finished most questions, Didnt complete some cause got no time and was stuck. I dont know about maths but lets hope for at least a B3 will be good. :D

Weekend was crap; slacked and didnt study really hard. :( I really need a push on my back. A hard one in fact. I want to get a respectable O level result and go a good course in poly. :D

About weekend, watched olympics at aunty's house. Had a gathering to prepare for next week wedding. Its my cousin's so must help. haha. I help to watch the TV and eat. :D haha. Usain Bolt was great. All hats off to him.

He is that DAMN good. haha. If only i could be like him. That will be great. :D If only....

Singapore won a medal. Yes, like finally. Thought Tao Li could won but still she got fifth in her debut, great enough. :D haha.

Ta-da. Off to shower and study. Chem prac tmrw. :D It will be hell for me. :(

Bye. :D

Song of the week: Lucky - Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat.

and my love goes to you. :DD

2008-08-12T19:45:00.000+08:00

There's no use regretting. I shall stand up and move on. This time, i shall make sure nothing will stop me of my goal. Onward, i say.

I will prove you wrong, no matter what.

2008-08-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

Hey yo :D

School closed today; means I wake up later and slack. haha. Managed to squeeze some maths and physics in my schedule. Seriously, i think my humanities gonna drop la. Its like i never revise for it totally. :(

I cant complain i got no time, cause everybody has the same time, i just didnt fully utilise it. Right now, blogging is a waste of time. But i dont care. See? I just contradict myself. Damn it la. I cant use my time wisely la. :(

I cant go on regretting. I got to do something. Like you said, stay optimistic and carry on. :D

Crap, i missed you like hell. :(

2008-08-11T16:04:00.000+08:00

Every day is my best day; this is my life. I'm not going to have this moment again.
- Bernie Siegel

I shall stay true to this from now on.

2008-08-10T15:33:00.000+08:00

Jason Mraz - Live High

I try to picture the girl
Through a looking glass
See her as a carbon atom
See her eyes and stare back at them
See that girl
As her own new world
Though her home is on the surface, she is still a universe

Glory God, oh God is peeking through the blinds
Are we all here standing naked
Taking guesses at the actual date and time
Oh my, justifying reasons why
Is an absolutely insane resolution to live by

Live high, live mighty
Live righteously
Takin' it easy
Live high, live mighty
Live righteously

And try to picture the man
To always have an open hand
See him as a giving tree
See him as matter
Matter fact he's not a beast
Oh no, not the devil either
Always a good deed doer
And it's laughter that we're makin' after all

The call of the wild is still an ordination why
In the order of the permeates
All our politics are too late
Oh my, the congregation in my mind
Is this assembly singing of gratitude
Practicing their lovin' for you

Live high, live mighty
Live righteously
Takin' it easy
Live high, live mighty
Oh, live righteously

And sing it out
And just take it easy
And celebrate the malleable reality
You see, nothin' is ever as it seems
Yeah this life is but a dream, oh

[Choir:]
Lift me up to the almighty
Raise your hands and start acknowledging
If you're living it righteously
Then you take the easy way
Just, just, take, take, take it easy

Live high, live high
Live mighty, mighty, mighty
Oh, live righteously
And takin' it easy
Live high, live mighty
Oh, live righteously
And just take, just, just
Takin' it easy high
Oh, live mighty, mighty
Oh, live righteously
Just take it easy
Say live high
Oh, live righteously, hey
Just take it easy

Live High [HIGH QUALITY] - Jason Mraz

2008-08-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

Its fcuked up.

2008-08-08T15:56:00.001+08:00

H-e-y y-o !

08/08/08. So called suppose to be a lucky day. I forgot the meaning but i do know that the number 8 is lucky to chi people. So lets see if its lucky or not.

Morning woke up. Bathed and felt damn good. Like funny but yea it was good. Ate breakfast and felt better. haha. Went school with a full stomach. My definition of a good start.
=LUCKY

Ok. Got out of house with brother and he insisted that i board the bus near sunshine place not at bpghs. A break of tradition. Bus 300 came late and i was late for the 985 bus.
=UNLUCKY

Took mrt. Missed 1 train on purpose while waiting for...... . Saw her and finally someone smiled widely. haha. :D Train wasnt crowded and didnt get to be squeezed by morning rush hour. Reached bb and board 77A. Managed to get to seat with ...... . :D haha. Im good. :P
=LUCKY

Reached school and morning assembly was slow. NCC got recollections and i had to stand for a long time. Sang few singapore songs, surprisingly i managed to remember all of them. haha. It was horrible singing though. Weather was unkind. First it was super hot. Blinding us with the scorching heat then while playing soccer with teachers, it was chilling cold.
=Unlucky.

After evrything, watched the captain ball's game. There was a minor incident that i dont dare mention la. haha scared people see then tell the person. :D haha. Went bb mac with adik. She ate, i didnt. haha. We pranked someone and talked about issues. Its been a long time we had such time together. Really appreciated adik's company and never-ending support! haha sayang adik! haha. Homed after that.
=lucky.

Final conclusion? Its not lucky or unlucky the day is. Its how we perceived it. Like what someone said, you cant expect life to always go along with your flow. Sometimes, its we who decide how situations will come about. We need to adapt to changes and find a purpose in life. Luck dont help that much.

And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years - Abraham Lincoln, sixteenth president of the United States of America.

2008-08-07T19:32:00.000+08:00

Hey yo !

School was as normal as could be. Played basketball after school, super hard la, playing against 2 guys who are damn tall and jump high. haha. Still i managed to get a few balls in :D haha. im getting better at this. :D

Journey home was fun. Went home with Bam, we talked alot about stuffs that involve us. It was a refreshing one as i learn new things about people. Met dumb pri sch students. Imagine at age 10+, they already have a 3G phone? I dont even know whats a phone till i reached 12 la. :( Thier parents really ....... Ok, shall stop here.

Walking home from bus stop, met even weirder people, saw some chi guys doing parkour-ing, obviously they sucked. haha. Then met some malay boys who were doing jumpstyle. haha. You should seen their faces, super screwed up while trying to stay in rhythm with the music. :D

Homed, onlined, bathed, slept, now blogging. haha. Shall study later :D

i got to admit, this is one good thing. i learnt loads from you, valuable lessons that no doubt will be useful for me in the future. you really changed me. i do hope you will give me a chance. without doubt, i will cherish you like i never did before. :D

2008-08-06T21:21:00.002+08:00

Hey. Im so going to be random today.

10 Random facts about this dude who owns this blog.

1- He likes blue.
2- He likes physics better than chemistry though the marks say otherwise.
3- He has this weird ambition; to be a renowned physiotherapist.
4- His underwear colours are either red, yellow, blue or grey.
5- He has more than 5000 songs in his music library but he listens to only 100 of them.
6- He keeps his ex breakup letter in his wallet to remind himself of something.
7- His desktop wallpaper is a picture of alex turner, frontman of Arctic Monkeys.
8- Speaking of which, he likes to listen to Arctic Monkeys.
9- He shits every 3 days.
10- He has no idea why he did these.

haha. lame i know.

bye.